daughters love
2003
This new year it really seems funny that we saw a new year in without you and the sausage roll fight. I really miss you Dad but i say that every day to someone, you was a really good friend as well as a dad. It is going to be so funny to go into this year and not have you as part of it love you dad Happy New Year.
One Year Ago
This is a really hard time and I'm finding it very hard to deal with. The only memories i have of this time last year is tears heart ache and sorrow so how do you deal with it. The day is going on and no matter what i cant change this time last year as much as i would like to and believe me i really would like to.Its been a year since i saw you smile heard your voice and its really hard to think that no matter how long i remain on this earth i will never share a moment with you.You are kept save happy and warm in my heart but thats not the same. That just my way to deal with my life, i will always love you dad and i will always miss you but my life is so different now that you opened that door a year ago today and went to a place ill not able to follow yet. The tears have flowed and the memories have filled my head and i placed a flower at your tree.lots of love to a Dad who is still loved so much and missed so much.
A Year On
One year ago today we followed a car with you on your last journey on this earth and my eye stung with the tears that i was unable to stop and a heart so full as sorrow that i thought it would never stop hurting.I did not want to think that the tears would stop and the pain would lessen i wanted to hurt and wanted the world to know that i missed you that my dad had die and i loved him.N ow a year later i feel the same but you are not here to follow and its been sort a long time since i saw your smile. i still miss you so much but its a pain i bear myself now with people around me saying that its a year ago come on pull yourself together let the man rest.Im unable to do that and why should i? you was my dad and my friend you never hurt me, you was always there for me even when you were ill. I get so mad when i think about you and my body tightens like a drum. i wanted more time with my dad and something stole that why? A year later and the tears can still fall and the pain is still there time heals they and i say it does not time numbs it I think about you every day and every day i could sit and cry but i don't because of others around be don't need it, so the tears now fall as i sit alone or has others sleep. its a time that i need to be close to you. A year ago we followed you to a service of your life 15mins of words and song how can that cover the time you was my dad or you as a person. It cant, how can someone sum up the Man you were in just a few words its impossible. I could sit and speak about you till this time next year and still no one would know you and i would remember something else to say.I love you so much Dad as i go on i will always keep you memories safe in my heart.
Fathers Day 15th May 2003
I came to visit you, but this time there was only flowers and a silent tear. You were a special Dad and i still miss you very much and its times like this that i realise just how much. My heart is heavy with the thoughts i have of you, and i've so much i need to tell you the girls are growing up so quickly these last few months and they miss you so........love and miss you always
My Birthday 6.July. 2003
I took you a flower today and wished myself a happy birthday from you, but it was not the same you would have joked about me getting old and told me i would caught you up. then sang happy birthday to me the way you did ever year. Its special days like today that i really miss you so much. then the tears flow again and my heart gets heavy. I never stop loving or missing you and i don't think i will. you were my friend and my dad. i really what you back to share i miss the talks we had and the little secrets we shared lots of love always...............Debbie
Today is a miss you day 29 Aug 2003
I got up today and the girls are staying with Mick and Sue for the weekend and I'm really losted with out them. Gary is not well and asleep so I'm a bit lonely, so i was looking at you web site, and i decided that I'm really missing you too.Grandad not well he had a fall and in hospital and he may now go in a home. but life goes on just the same, The only thing thats different is that we are all getting older Lynda becomes a teenager in November, She said it would be nice to have a party like she had before she started school a family do ,but thats going to be hard as both you and Selina are not here,you are both in the great unknown,or heaven. oh by the way dad i had a tattoo its a cross. i had it on my chest in the memory of you and Selina. Well Dad i have enjoyed my little chat with you and i love you lots I'm going to have a coffee and a cigarette now and maybe a few tears i love you lots and i really miss you where my Dad and my friend so i miss you double lots of love and hugs your daughter Debi
Bonfire night 5/11/ 2003
This year we spent Bonfire night diffrent we were at home and the girls just had sparklies its not the same without you and it seemed funny last year without you. You loved the night and the look on the girls faces but i think the girls missed you and this year they did not what to do anything, so we stayed at home you are still missed lots and lots. I love update this page with all the news on your special days that you loved so much and its a time for smiles and also tears ...love and miss you always Debbie
Happy Birthday 15/11/ 2003
Well here we are again another special day its your Birthday a day that we would be with you i dont think i ever missed spending you Birthday with you and today i will be putting flowers at your tree in the Crem, not really the same but it is the best i can do.Its only 5.33am but i really wanted to wish you Happy birthday so here i am updating your web site and ive put you pic on my messager so i can spend time with you even if it only in my head.
hope you like You are in my thoughts alot at the moment it seems that you are spending alot of time in my dreams but i dont mind i like it really you really mean the world to me and always will theres no one quite like your dad is there ...love and hugs always Debbiexxxxxxxxxxx HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD
27/11/2003
Today you would really be proud your eldest grandaughter lynda-kay become a teenager i remember your face when you first saw her and held her. You were was made up and tears filled your eyes. You made a lot of your two grandaughters and they both love you very much katie-Louise still sleeps on your pillow ..........we all miss you lots Debbie
16/12/2003
This morning im able to put my thoughts down, i was really upset yesterday Grandad passed away just before 6am aunty Norma was by his bed side, and mum had been to see him Sunday. I was told that he passed away peacefully, He had wanted to go at the end he was fed up the last few months since his fall, and he never got over it Like any other death it still hurts that someone you love is no longer here, at this time of year as well,Christmas just round the a few days away, and in the middle of the excitement and prettiness we face a funeral. It also brings back the feelings of losing you and when i cry i dont know if the tears are for grandad or for you I need to be strong and not let my feeling spoil the girls Christmas like yesterday it was Katies carol service with the school at the church. We were there to remember the day Jesus was born and all i could do was think that two very important men to me had died. Look out for Grandad and give him a kiss for me and tell him that i love him and ill miss him. like i love and miss you so much...................hugs always Deb
Christmas day thoughts
Im still not use to spending Christmas without you. This year we are doing things very diffrent and spending the day at home with the girls.Its a very lazy Christmas but lovely the girls loved all the gifts and Im on the settee after dinner watching T v It been a very busy upto now with Grandads Funeral on 23rd Tuesday ,the last of the Christmas shopping wednesday than the day itself, Boxing day we are going to Mick and Sues and staying over night. I really love and miss you Dad and it hurts alot at this time of year but i smile and deal with it. but the memories of Christmas spent with you pop into my head all the time.lots of love ...........Deb xxxxxx
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